Well anyway so after I tell my mom I'm doing my homework I decide to blog. Okay. I have a rotten heart and a non-existent conscience and a very, very good sense of street-smartness.

But I can't help it. I need to tell the world.

it's. over.

GCE 'O' LEVEL HIGHER ART PAPER IS O.V.E.R.

And I've gotten about 5 hours of sleep in the last three days (4am, 3am, non-applicable), and I've probably flunked my sleep MSG so badly that if this were a real test and there were real people up in the clouds tabulating our mean-sleep-grade per week and judging us accordingly, I'd probably be retaking the test over and over for the rest of my life (not that it's a test I mind retaking though). As of last Sunday night, 2am, 3am, 1.30am, 11.30am, 4am, 3am, nada. I swear my head feels distinctly lighter from all the dead-and-gone brain cells.

Mm. Before I lose it completely, I wanna do a quick round of thank-yous! - to BAT because she listens to my crap everytime all the time (and it's not like she has much time to begin with in the first place), cuz she offered her printing services to me even though I didn't take up the offer in the end (cuz of my family's fatal pride in our own in-house printer T_T) but which made all the difference because knowing that I had a plan B and a friend in this world carried me through all the way; BATRISHIYA O AISHITERU - to all my fellow higher art survivors because together we are unstoppable and because I love you all whatever - to KAT cuz she gave me the courage to go and proclaim my love for SUJU again by getting SIX!xD more of THOSE things xD from you-know-where - to STONG cuz yeah well for (near) infinite patience and for (xD) dessert! - and of COURSE THANK YOU LORD BECAUSE I KNOW WITHOUT YOU MY LAST BRAIN CELL WOULD'VE DIED OF LONELINESS. Cuz without You I'd just have lost the will to live by now.

Random!special thanks to Charlene, my awesome new seating partner, because she makes school really, really, reeaaaaaalllllllllyyyyyy realxed. I srsly don't know what *ahem* was trying to accomplish when she put us together because we're srsly, srsly, ssrrssllyy just taking it eeeasy. Saranghae!

Okay I can feel my brain shutting down. BYE ALL

dancing out on the edge~
the Darkening Dawn.

i've noticed my posts are getting shorter and shorter. it's the age of one-liners.

so, if i could sum up this post in one line, it'd be...

english is so not my thing.

ARGH.

my top ten favourite songs are all NOT english.

spanish. french. italian. jap. KOREAN. even sanskrit. and some made-up language by some new age group.

everything BUT english. unless it's enya. but enya doesn't count because i can't hear a single word she sings. same goes for tori amos.

one day i'm just going to shut my mouth and pretend that i only speak korean.

help.

the DARKENING DAWN

99 words

Speedtest

okay, so i'm out of inspiration for Higher Art.
(but that doesn't mean i haven't been racking my brains the entire day trying to complete it! and i WILL! (and why do i always have to put a footnote to Mr Ong explaining why i do the things i do ALL THE TIME?!))

and okay so i have a primary-school-typing-fast-is-cool complex.

but who cares! i type 99 words a minute.
can YOU do that?

xD

hahaha ANNYEONG!
the darkening dawn

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resolutions are made to be broken.

ah quote the wise words of nuttilie wong.

so therefore.

i shall make a... determination.

ah henceforth am determined to:
become a half-lifer for the coupla weeks before my higher art report is due. this will include not sleeping, spending free periods doing work, spending youtube and fanficcing time doing work as well, [doing my best to] stop sleeping doing class, studying like a... like half a nat wong (because i'm currently on a half-lifer and doing a complete nat-wong study routine will just make it a complete no lifer), etc etc etc the works - oh, and not eating as well, just so that my life can suck even more. get the whole job done, y'know. full package.

i hate it already.

i like my hedonism policy much much more.

AHH and i FINALLY got reunited with my mp3. *kisseu* ^^

aiish i'm completely not blogging intelligently la. sorry for lack of substance. but i just needed to make my determinations public so that the public-excluding-mrong-because-mrong-would-just-put-me-off-my-determinations-completely can remind me that i actually made a Determination.

LIFE COULDN'T GET BETTER (hey!) [at least i keep telling myself that]
nan nol pume ango nara
purun dahrul hyanghe nara (ho!)
jam dun noui ib machul koya
LIFE COULDN'T GET BETTER (hey!)
noui mame munul yoro jyo
geudae ne sonul jabayo

life couldn't get better.

[paksu! applause!]

at this point i just wanna thank super junior because it's that song and nearly that song alone (nearly cuz obviously "keeping jaime alive" has to be completely credited to our Father in the end xD) which has been getting me through the past few weeks.

aiish.

yeongweonhi
the darkening dawn.

is it just me or what...?

if i can't sing along to any song i hear cuz i don't know the lyrics, i consider it wasted.

it doesn't help that suju's songs are mostly (or slight-less-than-all) korean and that tablo raps so effing (!) fast. in korean. T_T

it also doesn't help that suju's dance cuts are so amazing, i can barely keep my eyes on the lyrics for fear of missing out on all the little little things that make suju wayy-over-the-top awesome. (stuff like how sungmin's awesome hair flops all over his face when he does one move in the don't don mv. or how teukie has this totally uncharacteristic but undeniably sexy down-the-nose look at the "boom" part before henry lau comes on. oh and henry lau is definitely one section that can't be missed either. and how teukie waves at you for a split second in the miracle mv. i always find that the next line of lyrics after that is forever stuck in my throat.) i mean yeah definitely want (need!) to get the lyrics right but aiish! doesn't help that if i don't WATCH the mv and pretend that i'm picking up moves, i also consider it wasted. T_T my life is full of conflicting intentions.

and the language barrier is annoying. i can't use online dictionaries because i don't know how to write the [insert swearword] characters in the first place! i mean there are like three different ways to write the letter t or k or something like that and a thousand permutations of how to write one stupid syllable and therefore a million different ways to write a WORD. i need classes. (and new glasses too i expect, what with all the hardcore cyber-fandoming i've been indulging in.)

ah whatever la. i'm off to read more fanfic. xD

annyeonghikasaeyo!
saranghae,
the Darkening Dawn.

ack. my brain is totally burnt out from *illegal number* hours of hardcore *illegal activity*-ing. aish but i'm happy man.

NEE-WAYS!

i shall dedicate this post to none other than my completely awesome band(age) crew members. specifically my band(age) pub comm. members, for whom there can be no replacement.

umm. where do i begin.

the stuff we did was just so effing lame, i think i WOULD be seriously (ah-shincha-yo!) emotionally scarred for ever if not for the company. on the contrary i think the past few days were the best times i've ever had for a long time.

the jingle. oh man the jingle. doodes that was a complete stroke of genius. all the information stuck in one idiotic, annoying, rhyming poem. i just wonder how people're going to remember us. xD we sec four leh! k la but sec four supposed to do significant things. "embarrassed ourselves publicly in front of the whole school", check.

fast-forward to audi deco.
...
i got nothing to say except-
"EVERYWHERE WE GO~
PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW
WHY THE FLOOR LIDDAT~
SO WE TELL THEM
YOU DON'T NEED TO KNOW..."
haha i destroyed two band(age) shirts already la! >_< size="2">and sann's piglet. sorry sorry sorry sorry >_<
and the grunge stars.
"it was on purpose la!"
(yeah right.)
i remember the first "brainwave".
abby and jaime happyhappy transporting a banner to the grass patch to dry/
wind blows/
[freeze scene]
"LIFE COULDN'T GET BETTER~~"
ahahaha and the real purposeful "grunging" seriously began when our very own HYUNG-NIM dao chang!
like abby said.
"this is zoe on a normal day. she see the grunge stars, she start screaming 'AHHH WHY LIDDAT?!?! oh man it looks like crap!' (or something to that effect)."
and what did zoe on a pubcommistreatedlikeshhh-ahhcannotsay day?
"ey quite nice eh!"
and the star incident. zoe tey produced (as in drew, cut and painted) a cardboard star that was seriously koyak. the top point was bent to one side. for further imagery, just imagine Patrick the starfish from spongebob squarepants.
abby: "this is zoe on a normal day. she see this kind of star, she will yell 'oh man WHAT HAPPEN? throw it away la!'"
zoe tey on a pubcommistreatedlike-somethingthatrhymeswithmisfit day: [very serious] no really you see this star? it looks like it's bowing to you, right?
AHHAHAHAHA after that we officially certified her hyunghyungnimnim. [note hyung means older brother in korean. joke came about because sandra seriously couldn't take the concept of "grunge stars". so abby say "sandra. guys like grunge stars. we are just getting into the mindset of guys." and i point at her and yell "HYUNG!" - yeah but i'm older la. and i'd know because, well, her birthday is on the seventeenth of september and i'd know that because, well, haha i er play neopets. ^^ hacked her account. ANYWAY sandra chua ah. don't you know suju is always changing their image. i mean look at what happened to their hair in don't don. similarly, as hardcore suju fans we must always be open to new ideas and concepts! xD then you will be a true dongsaeng ^^]
HWAITING HYUNG NIM-AH!

aii pub comm srsly... we were made to make, put up and *swallows hard* take down the deco on the same day. srsly la OUCH.

and all the records we set man.

Left The Greatest Mark On The School Building Award
hmm i wonder why people still haven't noticed the *beep* in the *beep*. so big and yet people make us clean the thousand times smaller black drops of paint right next to it. humans are so weird xD i just hope people don't notice the *beep* on the *beep* on the grass patch. ^^
Did The Stupidest Things Ever For Publicity Award
enough said la.
Stayed Back In School Latest To Finish A Job Award
of course this is all relative la. i mean we WERE the latest to go home on friday - 11.30 p.m. sandra and i were having a nap on the art room tables after lugging all the half-finished deco up to the art room. haha i keep wondering what would have happened if mrs chen hadn't found us there. prolly'd have camped out there overnight and gone home after the concert at whatever time we went home on the next day - which incidentally, was a little past 12a.m.

and of course -
Best Budget Production Award.
i think it started with the banner. because i said that stupid line concerning where we going to get money for the banner - "You won't know about it."
after that everything also save cost. painted the banner with lethal wall paint and left a super big impression at X.
make the goliath plasters also save cost. begged the popular peeps at btp for their old cardboard boxes and abigail went digging around in the recycling bin under the staircase for more old cardboard boxes.
buy stiff black paper in the end also buy the more flaccid kind. cuz why? seventy cents cheaper.
white drapes for the audi also come free from the drama club.
travel to btp also must walk.
buy lunch also must eat at hawker centre. if not then get wholesale from supermarket.
hanging up decoration also have to work in the dark.
srsly la i think we saved over a hundred bucks with all that saving.

HAHA i think we were the ones who laughed the hardest when we saw what was for dinner man - innocent chicken rice - "haha construction worker food" - and even more so on the day before, where we got some seriously suspicious looking rendang with rice and veggie for dinner. it was brown, sludgy, and it looked just like - "PUB COMM FOOD!!!!!" "AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!"

and the bu liang shao nian from pub comm also. i stare at [read: admire] my blackened "hand of glory" after painting all the black stars on the white drapes. "wah i look like some chain smoker"
and of course abigail say "haha we look like drunkards man! later when ms lau come you pretend to smoke zoe you sniff the paint and-" running out of ideas, abby, sann and min feng just roll around the ground in the normal pub comm-esque manner.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA aii i think at the end of the day, i wouldn't trade my pub comm job for ANYTHING.

to abigail: you were a BRILLIANT ic, i couldn't say this enough times okay maybe i can but AH SHINCHA-YO i mean it you were BRILLIANT. srsly surpassed expectations. from the beginning man you even had a PROPOSAL for how the banner should look like. annen you always forking out the money for whatever materials we bought. annen bringing pineapple tarts on saturday - FULL MARKS FOR WELFARE OF MEMBERS MAN!!! haha and sharing your lunch one saturday later for our breakfast. y' really didn't need to but you did! xD and taking the initiative to go and tie everything to the aircon- sann and i were saying you were up there for like FOREVER and yeah you really gave your all for the pub comm man especially since most of your members were um really really scared of heights (okay maybe just me. oh no wait sandra too! yeah anyway proves my point.)
mm yeah anyway just - a really big THANK YOU! i don't think we could have done it without any one of us but most of all we couldn't have pulled through without an awesome leader - always first to chiong into the fire, trusted her members and to top it off all knew the lyrics to MIRACLE! - what more could i want? xD

and to everyone ELSE even though i know you're not going to read this - thanks to min feng who made the vids, who endured our korean spazzes and got her hands dirty in the end even though she was the one who didn't even begin on the change to hyung-ism, to our very own beloved HYUNG-NIM [zoe is no more] who was always a catalyst for leaving your members rolling around the floor nearly unconscious from laughter, and who also had to endure korean spazzes BUT who still learnt the tune to our theme song "miracle" and you still love us don't you? (: - and finally to sandra chua, cuz you were always there when i just couldn't take the pubcomm-ness of it all sometimes, and cuz you were a fantastic DJ. xD y'know i'm really... startingtolikeDBSKnow. AHHHHH

hahaha ANYWAY! basically, THANK YOU ALL FOR EVERYTHING!! for all the fun and love and building-of-abs; seriously i couldn't have gotten a better workout on the stomach muscles doing crunches.

SARANGHAEYO YEONGWEONHI!
[for min feng and zoe respectively who don't really subsribe to korean-ism (though for zoe that's going to change soon): "I LOVE YOU!" and "AISHITERU!"]

you guys are the best.
and for that just a big KAMSAHAEYO!!

other credits: thanks yiling for being a GREAT overall ic. you did your best for band(age) and all of us could really see that. thanks for the flowers! oh and thanks mr ong for being the first photographer for pub comm's first photoshoot xD

<3
the DARKENING "i have sold my soul to pub comm and i don't regret it" DAWN.

the term's going to be over. in a blink of an eye... and we're going to change seats. again.

so in loving memory of my sojourn as an installation next to nat w. -

Conversation [albeit a really short one]
[after a particularly exhausting social studies lesson]
nat w: social studies is so hard. it's like history. history is really hard! it's like... literature. literature is really hard - it's like MEP! MEP is really hard, it's like art. and art is really hard, it's like... LIFE. and life is like...
me: death?
nat w: yeah exactly!

ahh nat wong ah nat wong. i'll miss sitting next to you man. up to now [?!] still don't remember/can't get over the fact that i take FULL literature. eejit.

Recollection [albeit an annoying one]
nat w: [busily copying literature notes from Whose Life Is It Anyway - busily copying MY literature notes from Whose Life Is It Anyway] Do you take full lit?
me: y'think?

and all your words of the day. why suddenly stop eh?! it was educational.

favourite word of the day: huckleberry. usage [from official Nat W use-the-word-of-the-day-la!-dictionary]: don't huckle my berry!

but of course y'all know my secret favourite word of the day is harakiri. because it's just so apt in describing what school life feels like. "school life feels like you're plunging a dagger into your stomach and dragging it across your belly with sadomasochistic sounds of pleasure emnating from your mouth"

and if there's one thing you taught me about life [with you], it's that you can never take enough salt when you're talking to nat w.

[in school one day, morning before assembly, one blue monday]
me: AHHH!!! I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT THE @#£$%^&* CHINESE CI YU TEST TODAY!!! [note: chinese ci yu tests are one of a kind. the s&m lao shi tells you which lesson from the textbook is tested, you pore over the text wielding a highlighter to jab away at every single ci yu which you think looks suspiciously difficult and sophisticated enough to come out in a test, and spend the rest of your night and coffee memorizing every. single. thing. oh and if you have time after that, go online to compare whose list is longer. T_T in other words, never study = kanasai.]
nat w: YEAH! did she write it on the board? NO! [actually after that we found out that it WAS on the board, only in minute lao-shi-esque squiggly chinese words unreadable from our sitting position] did she announce it at all? NO!
me: [starts feeling better] YEAH! what kinda rubbish! [li zhi qi zhuang de slam fist on the table.] can you believe it i only knew about it like NOW!
nat w: YEAH ME TOO! i only found out about it on friday.

i'm used to it.

and the communal great wall of china! awesome for making good use of one's time during particularly unproductive [read: boring] lessons.

and everything else.

thanks doode. [robohug] - because nat w is autistic and hates to be touched.

and of course i didn't forget DAPHNE NG, my other wonderful seating partner! haha although i didn't understand most of your math explanations, THANKS for all the patience and whatevers. you're much nicer than what people make you out to be. so yeah it's been AWESOME and i give you my blessing as i sends you forth into the world with your OWN a math textbook ^^ hwaiting!

to both of you: SARANGHAMNIDA.

don't forget me! ^^

ahh good heavens i sound like some.. ?! jaimeliew we're only changing seats. T_T srsly.

but WHO CARES.

^^

ahh~ today after a LOOOOOOOOOONG LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time, my dear boss-hyung finally FINALLY FINALLY~~~~~~~~~ went out with me. xD for sacrificing your time and energy and everything, THANK YOU. iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou! (((((((((((:

and BAT! haha THANKS for letting me load all my crap onto you every single monday. i know i disrupt your work a lot even though you adamantly refuse to admit it. i don't believe. weelll anyway just t' let you know - you make my day every day i talk to you. (:

oh and lastly - WELCOME BACK MR ONG. it was real painful without you man. art just wasn't as fun. so yeah. and don't worry your hair will grow back. xD

HONEY!! if you're reading this, the lagsane you made was AWESOME. i dreamt about it in the night.

and YAY i finally declared my true love in comics connection today! comics connection peeps, i know you made a lot of money out of me+DBSK, but i'm tellin' ya now i belong with SUPER JUNIOR alone. (so can you please please restock on suju stickers? i mean now that i've got your entire present stock sitting on my table at home? i need t' spread the love to other people!)

ah well! xD cya everyone!

GOODNIGHT!
annyeong!

<3
Darkening "St. Luke's HOORAY TICKETS ARE SOLD OUT" Dawn

I've given my life to St. Luke's man. I wonder if they know. Just exactly how much grey matter I've sacrificed for all the ahgong ahma there burning up my entire stock of midnight oil trying to dash up @#£$%^&* pub posters. Not saying that I don't want to do my bit for charity but... Srsly? Doodes does THIS look like cheerful giving of free will?

I've lost so many brain cells I swear I can feel my head growing lighter and lighter. The Cell Countdown is going to go on and on and on until one day, I wake up in bed and find that I don't have enough brainpower to remind me that my name is Jaime Liew Hui Xin, my toast is waiting for me and I'm actually a human being with a life albeit one that sucks.

Because yes, one fine day I'm going to open my eyes and discover that my grand cell count totals up to ONE.

I find myself thinking a lot about how life will be like with ONE brain cell. Chem teachers always tell you that it takes a good hard knock for two particles to react. I imagine myself desperately banging my head on the table in a last-ditch attempt to figure out the answer to 1+1=? and if that last brain cell happened to hail from my right brain, heaven help my math because I forsee myself happily scribbling down the answer, "11".

Imagine if EVERYONE had only one brain cell left. "Brainstorming" would take on a completely different meaning. To "get the sparks going", we'd have to "put our heads together" - hard - in the hope of getting any kind of "brainwave".

Metal skull plates would become a government-issue thing from birth. In every organization, everyone takes turns at "Thinking". Construction workers would find a whole new in-demand job, what with their yellow "Thinking Caps" all ready to be put to a wholly different use for the good of the society.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I don't waaaannnnt!!!!!!!!!!!!! *clutches head in terror* get away from my brain cells, all you!

I begin to sympathize with Magneto's fetish for archaic-looking bronze helmets.

St. Luke's what have you done to me?

AHHH I just thought of something - y'know how I say "I hold up my life before me sometimes like a torn and tattered shirt" - WELL I had a nightmare Saturday night (or more like Sunday morning) about how - how. The BAND(AGE)SHIRTSCAMEOUTALLSCREWEDUP. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH yeah and how the orange became a horrible peachy coral colour and how some parts of people's shirt wouldn't "DOWNLOAD" and so there were huuuge patches of white and everything and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH omtomtomtomt.

=X

There goes my childhood man. My only chance of ever experiencing first-hand the "innocence" and "bliss" and everything of childhood so I can contrast it against my pathetic adult life when I grow up so I can write proper novels juxtaposing childhood and adulthood like every pro writer DOES! Danggit why does life have to make things so difficult for everyone man. SRSLY. GET A LIFE.

Aiii.

Life.

Enough said.

JAL JUMUSAEYO.

SARAMMADA SARANGHAE!

HWAITING!

HAENGBOK YEONGWEONHI.

annyeong!

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